It felt like i was in the beginning of life — in between worlds — where there is ni gravity — no perception of light — but light exist somehow — just flow sensation and deep belonging to the force of nature and nurturing goddess mother (Katya) - I let go of all — i surrendered — my heart melted I felt deep vibrations coming from within — I come out crying — feeling deeply the strings of life itself squashing pulsating through me with the waves of ocean — it was so powerful — your hands Katya spiralled me into the vortex of mysteries of life and my own existential experience — no Shani — no identity just life force in its core — after waves of cry I settled in back to my new awareness — with a clearer lance and still mind — having a positive attitude towards myself — my circumstances — and life in general 
Forever remember this sistrenka — thank you